The narcissist and the pitiful

 

It ended with remorse...
As if I was born accustomed to agony...

Hereby I'm sitting amongst the prisoners, who were accused of murdering, robbing and harrassing...

Gazing long at their tattooed shoulders and long dirty nails that look like animals claws, even animal claws are way better than this disgusting sight!

My only crime was to fall in love with a narcissist.



It started with pain and I endured... only until that moment I killed him with my bare hands.

He was that charming boy who shows off the number of girls who attempt to approach him, he's also clever in studying, a sweet talker, and having such a charismatic attitude that makes him sparks in between the students,

But his darkest side was only viewed before me,
When he bullies the girls, the boys, teachers and everyone around him
When he keeps abandoning his girlfriends for no reason

When he claims he has standards but all he's got is fake judgemental ass

He's known as "the heart breaker" and he's literally loving being called this everywhere!
He never compromises to anyone, or gets committed to a pact...
He's always just talking, with no actions to be attached to his words...

He's associating with the national team of football
But everyone was complaining about his behavior, stating that it's quite prideful and selfish especially in a sport that requires devotion, passion, stamina as well as team work!

He was taking part in this group of people including men who consider ladies as objects and all are sluts whose lives are sabotaged and can not be tackled except by men, the leaders of all time.



And despite all of this, spectated by me!!!

I submitted for his charms...

He talked to me for the very first time when the chemistry teacher matched us together to work on a project and whenever we go to the labor he keeps asking me to cover his false answers and begs to see me blamed instead of him, because his ego won't let him feel alright if happened otherwise... because he's never wrong.

All what he did is to ask me covering his dark spots, not only in chemistry but in real life likewise.

He got my number and started chatting with me and gossiping about the girls in our school, he barely knows something about them but he keeps pretending every time that he knows way more than any other mortal does.

One day he asks me out, another day he doesn't get in touch,
Until I wanted to noncontact him anymore,
The fires were burning me as nothing seems obvious in this story, he never confronted me or told me an actual meaningful sentence,
But now I'm sentenced because of him...


I filled up every gap in front of myself with whatever I daydream with, fearing to lost that dopamine doses haunting my body every time we meet.


I overheard him telling the teacher that I'm a good partner but I do know why he said this, and very unfortunately I was happy naively because he considered me a guard who covers his asshole character and absorbs it, hence turn it into one with good impression, who never does any mistake.

After I was caught by him almost shitting my pants for such an awkward situation

He asked me to go on a date with him
And by night he didn't apologize for his absence, I wore so good to fit with his charming leading character but it ends up with me going to his house, soaked in grudge and looking dreadful before his door,

I knocked one, twice, then a girl wearing a hoodie comes out and asks me who I am...

It was raining heavily, pouring outside and inside,

I decided not to confront him and whatever good theories I had about him will never hide who he really is.

He didn't even apologize later,
My heart didn't stop pouring

So I faked an account and stalked his old girlfriend  who was dumped so quickly to ask her slowly about any data that could be mentioned about him,
Thinking deeply that I gained something,
When I knew that he hates women because he hates his mother...


Makes sense! He abused everyone around him according to the rage he owns all in his heart against his mother and so his entire circle...

He always seeked attention, he wanted to be seen because he's never seen by his mother,

Seen in an aggressive way...
He feeds on people's underestimating
He feeds on people's deteriorations

He never takes a step unless someone else starts it...

If someone gets high marks in geometry he gets higher marks next time ...
If someone meets a girl, he meets ten, if someone crosses barriers he breaks hundreds.
He's never satisfied he wants more, and since i learned this about him I never stopped blackmailing him,
With photos with girls been abused by him, and severely threatened to shut their mouths up... threatened with scandals on porn videos, with failing school projects and with sabotaging their healthy relationships only because he wants this.

They all fell for his illusions, they all feared his ridiculous threats

But his fate was meant to end only because he met me...

I encouraged these girls to teach him a lesson and go report him to the police

But their witnesses have been declined due to lacking evidences...
He started to threaten everyone again, and insisted on knowing whom exactly encouraging them to take such an action,

They showed my identity which was fake and as I was prepared to encounter the consequences behind this, he wasn't.

He tracked my location with his geek friend, then he followed my pc and trapped me nearby the public swimming pool, I knew he was looking for me and he kept searching for me everywhere

And then he found me in the vip pool
Finding no exit to quit through,

And he asked with raspy voise: "so it was you , idiot! How far do you know about me?"

And my response was "I'll answer you if you answer me first, why are you doing this? Why are you punishing people for mistakes they never commit is it your mom!?"

"Who are you to even ask and wait such an answer! Don't you recognize that you're nobody, that you are labelled a loser among the students, a nerd who doesn't have dignity, who sells her body to guys who never want her!"

"Yes and who are those guys, for God sake!!! Why do I even care about what you say!"

"Because..."
He came closer to me and whispered "because you need to learn more, and I'm here to give you an experience,"
He pushed me and I fell into the pool trying hard not to float dead later while he's laughing and threatening me saying
That if I didn't leave him alone he will continue bothering me.

Then I woke up finding my hand flooded with blood and he's laying on the floor and I was tearing apart of what I saw, I wish he didn't provoke me, I wish I never was here or done anything previously mentioned...

They took me to a court and authorized an attorney to defend me who's inclined to be a feminist but she couldn't do anything about it, I was jailed anyways...

It was because of jealousy, because i felt the urge to fix him 

To be different unlike the other girls...

 I was jailed because of a person who never deserves
Because of a good aura I forgot about his dark side totally overcame every bad detail so I can have a chance with him, and when I was so close, he disappointed me...

And love turned into hate
Turned into a murder...

A never ending remorse.